Why I Have Never Quit to Do This Full Time
It comes up more than you would think. Somebody finds out I build things, or drive, or write any of this down, and there is a moment where they ask — sometimes as a compliment — when I am going to do it properly.
The answer is never. Not as a dramatic renunciation. As arithmetic, and a couple of things about myself I have had a long time to observe.
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The Version of the Question People Are Actually Asking
When people ask this, they are usually not asking about money. They are asking whether I believe in the thing I am doing, and the implication is that staying employed means I do not.
I understand the logic and I think it is backwards. Every piece of content that frames leaving as the brave choice is produced by somebody whose leaving worked out, which is a sampling problem so obvious I am amazed it survives contact with anybody's judgement. Nobody makes the video about the year they went all in on a thing with two users.
I have also watched this happen up close. There is a guy I came up around whose thing genuinely worked — and I mean worked, not worked in the way people say on the internet. He is doing well. I am mildly, unattractively resentful about it maybe twice a year. And when he talks about the two years before it worked, he describes a period I know for a fact I would not have survived with kids in the house.
The Time I Actually Ran the Numbers on Leaving
I did seriously consider it once, about four years ago, when one of the tools had a brief moment of looking like it might become something. I got as far as a spreadsheet.
The spreadsheet had a runway calculation in it, which is where the exercise died. Not because the number was small — because of what the number was made of. Every month of runway I had was money that was currently doing a job: mortgage, groceries, the fund that exists so that when the car finally does the thing it is going to do, it is an inconvenience rather than a crisis.
To buy myself twelve months of trying, I would have had to convert the thing that makes ordinary bad weeks survivable into a bet. And the honest assessment of my own thirty-folder track record is that I am a person who loves starting and is measurably bad at finishing. Handing that person a runway is not a plan. It is a way to find out something about yourself you already know.
I closed the spreadsheet. I have opened it maybe twice since, both times late at night, both times closing it again.
What Staying Costs, Because It Does Cost Something
I do not want to pretend this is a free decision, because the people who make the other choice are not idiots and there is a real price on this side of it.
What staying costs is ceiling. Working for somebody else, there is a number above which I do not go, and it is a fine number and it is a number. Everything I build in my evenings is small because evenings are small, and it will always be small, because the constraint is not ambition or ideas — it is that there are three usable hours in a Tuesday and I am tired for at least one of them.
It also costs a certain amount of self-image, which I mentioned elsewhere and which is the part that actually stings. I am not the guy who built the thing. I am the guy who is good at his job and has thirty folders.
"You could do it, though," my brother-in-law said once, encouragingly, in the middle of describing a scheme that I want to be clear I have not participated in. He says it about everything. It is one of his best qualities and the single least reliable signal available to me.
The Thing That Made Peace With It
What settled it was reframing what the side stuff is for. As long as it was auditioning to become my income, every one of these little projects was failing, constantly, by an enormous margin. Thirty folders is a catastrophic record for a business and a completely normal one for a hobby.
So they are hobbies that occasionally pay. The driving is a lever I pull in specific weeks. The tools are things I make because making things is what I do with my hands. The Roblox game is time with my kids that happened to involve a compiler.
None of that has to grow. Nothing here is a seedling. That single change of frame did more for how much I enjoy my evenings than any productivity thing I have ever tried.
So: never. Not because the other way is wrong, but because I have met the guy who would have to execute it, and I have known him for a long time.
Note: Everyday Hustle Jeff is the written side of a digital series. These accounts are composite and dramatized. Any figures are what they were on the day, for one person, and are not a projection, a track record, or advice.